so im kinda not sad anymore. i mean there were times in the past few weeks where all i did was basically cry and cry and fill rivers with the tears coming from my eyes. but yeah no im kinda not sad anymore. kinda feel a bit lonely, though, but people are basically coming back to me and yea there are some whos still not here but i know for sure that they will be eventually. sooo no, the loneliness is no longer as bad as it was before, so im not sad about it. things are going pretty fine, the exams and everything. but im not exactly happy either. no im not excited about getting up and do stuffs, like i dont know nothing actually excite me anymore, besides surrounding myself with the people im most comfortable with and genuinely like, and the list is not a long one. and most people that are on the list is far away, or soon to be far away. like at least more than 2 hours drive in a traffic free day away, and some of them will cost me plane tickets if i wanna meet up. the other people on the list is kinda busy. were all busy.
but yeah im not sad but im also not exactly happy. its just that i kinda lost interest in things. no excitement. can the people who is far away please come home so i can be excited about you coming home yes please that would be appreciated ok thank you.
November 24, 2013
November 22, 2013
hi
so i kinda miss writing. been a looooooong time, huh?
so here i am in the middle of my first mid term exam of the college life.
lonely. being in college makes me feel like im alone, all the time.
it's been about 5 months since i left my dorm and my high school friends (graduation was on june 1st), and sleep by my own. not a big fan of this life. kinda wanna go back. people keep getting farther.
boyfriend left on sept 6, been about 2 months now, 11000 miles away huh? i dont even wanna go to miami but he keeps asking me to be there on his birthday, considering he wont be able to come home. who doesnt go home on new year?
bestfriend's in bali, also driving those planes. why is my life surrounded by pilots. anyway, bali's not too far if you exclude the fact that he's in buleleng which is 4 hours away from kuta. he left a few days ago, on a sunday morning.
2 of (ex)roommates are in jogja. hirzi's in jogja. and felix (not that he matters HAHA ok maybe he does matter a bit). 1 goes to trisakti which i guess is kinda near if you have the time to go there (which i dont).
merlyn's being busy with UI, moving to mares. along with gege and trissi. irena's at binus with adam and dwima and dwipa which is also near if you have the time (which i dont). ellen's being ellen and is far, and vero's at uki being also far. bulan's going to germany next year.
deszan's in surabaya with yoan. kinda left without any notice. that traitor. came home a few weeks ago and we met up immediately so yeah he's still a precious one.
pandu is in malang! dan kemaren pulang tapi gaketemu what a bummer.
anty's in bandung with her ITB aaaaaah. i want her to be here with me.
fadil and danang and kalvin is gonna be in germany next january :-( and reno's gonna be in holland. and mila's already in holland while muning's in italy and everybody's not here with me.
except isal. isal's just next door lol i literally cling my whole college life on him idfc i need some sanity in the middle of those people.
sooo yeah thats the update to make it up for the past 8/9 months. mid test tomorrow. though im not sure somebody still read my shit anymore.
anyway. bye.
so here i am in the middle of my first mid term exam of the college life.
lonely. being in college makes me feel like im alone, all the time.
it's been about 5 months since i left my dorm and my high school friends (graduation was on june 1st), and sleep by my own. not a big fan of this life. kinda wanna go back. people keep getting farther.
boyfriend left on sept 6, been about 2 months now, 11000 miles away huh? i dont even wanna go to miami but he keeps asking me to be there on his birthday, considering he wont be able to come home. who doesnt go home on new year?
bestfriend's in bali, also driving those planes. why is my life surrounded by pilots. anyway, bali's not too far if you exclude the fact that he's in buleleng which is 4 hours away from kuta. he left a few days ago, on a sunday morning.
2 of (ex)roommates are in jogja. hirzi's in jogja. and felix (not that he matters HAHA ok maybe he does matter a bit). 1 goes to trisakti which i guess is kinda near if you have the time to go there (which i dont).
merlyn's being busy with UI, moving to mares. along with gege and trissi. irena's at binus with adam and dwima and dwipa which is also near if you have the time (which i dont). ellen's being ellen and is far, and vero's at uki being also far. bulan's going to germany next year.
deszan's in surabaya with yoan. kinda left without any notice. that traitor. came home a few weeks ago and we met up immediately so yeah he's still a precious one.
pandu is in malang! dan kemaren pulang tapi gaketemu what a bummer.
anty's in bandung with her ITB aaaaaah. i want her to be here with me.
fadil and danang and kalvin is gonna be in germany next january :-( and reno's gonna be in holland. and mila's already in holland while muning's in italy and everybody's not here with me.
except isal. isal's just next door lol i literally cling my whole college life on him idfc i need some sanity in the middle of those people.
sooo yeah thats the update to make it up for the past 8/9 months. mid test tomorrow. though im not sure somebody still read my shit anymore.
anyway. bye.
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