entah apa yang salah sama kita.

tapi,
mau benar atau salah

"kita" tetap "kita".

Bukan sekarang

Ada banyak yang bisa lewat antara kita dan selamanya.
Jarak, misalnya.
Dengan pohon-pohon, rumput, dan bermacam-macam orang yang ada di antaranya.

Atau sifat
Waktu
Teknologi
Banyak.

Tapi
Aku tidak mau mereka lewat sekarang

Ini bukan surat cinta.

Malam, kamu. Maaf, aku jahat ya?
Tapi, kalau
Aku bilang aku sayang kamu
Kamu percaya kan?

so this is how the story goes

once upon a time, there was a boy
who made me think
"be the player, not the game"

sounds awful, i know :\


and now, there's this boy who got me thinking
"fuck playing, i'm all yours"

it's almost been 9 months, chica

can't you be happy for me? i thought you said you love me.
for the sake of my terrible ego, this is what makes me happy.
really?
like, do i really have to feel uncomfortable whenever i'm with you, whenever i wanna share something about him, but i ended up talking about another thing, because i'm scared of what you think of him?

unfinished posts!

I was just at my Manage Post page when I realized that I actually have some drafts that I honestly have forgotten why I even wrote that. It's not some long post; actually they're really short. But I think it meant something for me back then, so I'm gonna put it up here.

3/11/11
in my point of view

what's above my name,
is your name


3/11/11
VIVA LA DARREN CRISS!

behold, Darren Everett Criss
new love <3


4/23/11
sigh.

I've been sighing a lot lately.


And............that's it. And then we got the 15th birthday post, which I probably will never finish and post. Oh, well. Let the drafts be drafts.

you got me.

you're stuck on me in my laughing eyes. i'm standing here and i can hardly breathe.
you got me.

the way you take my hand is just so sweet. and that crooked smile of yours? it knocks me off my feet.
i just can't get enough; how much do i need to fill me up?
it's everything that i've been dreaming of.

no matter what i do, my heart is filled with you--i can't imagine what it'd be like: living each day in this life without you.

you're stuck on me in my laughing eyes.
you got me.

if you don't put up the effort,

then why should i?

Soooo

Had a good convo last night. Neither one of us was the bitch. It's pretty funny (if not scary) how similar we are, don't you think? I still feel bad about.....it, but I know you'll make up your mind soon. At least I'm glad to know that I'm still considered your "good one"

DUDE!

NICK'S IN INDONESIA! OH GAWWWWD HE'S IN BALI WITH JOE AND THE OTHERS. IM GONNA GO PLAN A SURPRISE VISIT TO MY UNCLE IN BALI.

But does he really bring that Delta Goodrem girl? She's 26, baby. You're 18 -__________- find someone younger. 3 years younger would do ;p









Ok I sound like some craze lovesick crackhead, don't I?