when you're fifteen

It's about.......................20 or 30 minutes to my 16th birthday. To be honest, I really don't want it to come. I've been wanting to stop growing up since I left 14. I really really terribly desperately don't want to grow up. I don't know what I'm going to do with my life. I don't know what I'm going to do when I grow up. I want a time machine so very badly.

I had a really good time being fifteen. I prefer to write it "fifteen" instead of "15", I don't know why.

As a 15 year old, I was damn happy. I enjoyed life, every single second of it.
I had my RVS, I did fine with my (previous) boyfriend, I enjoyed being a senior.

But we can't have everything we want in this life, right?

Time passed by and here I am, with the ticking clock.
And a new boyfriend.
And new friends.

I didn't want to leave Junior High, but I did
I didn't want to start Senior High, but I did
I didn't want to leave Recoureveuns, but I did

I don't want to grow up, but unfortunately, I am.

Just like Taylor Swift's "Fifteen"

"Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them
When you're fifteen and your first kiss makes your head spin around"

byebye fifteen. hello sixteen.